Diary Entry 1: Me, Tommo.
I feel stressful, guilty, insecure. When should I tell my family that actually I am responsible for the death of my own dad. Or actually how? They will hate me. They will never love me again. I hate it. I hate living with this blame inside of me. I don’t feel enough confident. And also Molly would not understand me, since I’ve been Charlie’s and Molly’s postman whole last year. I was happy and sad at the same time. Happy, because I could see Molly really often this days and spend time together with her hiding from her family, since she was not allowed to see us anymore. And sad… because I knew something was going on between her and Charlie. Was she loving him more than me? Did he replace me? Yesterday Molly’s mom came to our house together with Molly and showed my mom all the letters between Charlie and Molly. Molly’s mom was really angry and Molly was devastated. After, Molly’s mom asked if they were seeing each other as well. Charlie said the deep hurting truth. I couldn’t believe it. Him and Molly were meeting as well, not only sending letters. I was destroyed and my heart was broken.
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